Saturday 27 February 2010

MANG

我好忙

我好盲

我好莽

我好茫

Thursday 25 February 2010

吃饭与聊天

午餐时间 一贯地与三五好友到了UOA

除了填饱肚子 还聊聊天

记得那天的话题好严肃阿

没有说出来谁会知道

说了出来还真的惊讶

两个同学一致认为

我需要见心理辅导

啊 有酱悲咩 ><


其实我们聊的 不过就是

Object Relation Theory

加上一些past experiences

我喜欢Adler的说法

我们就是过去 现在和未来的成品

过去发生过什么 其实不是重点

关键在于我们怎么去看待

或许每个人的心里面

在某个角落处

多多少少都会有些深刻的记忆

即使已经不再提起

可是我们还是从中学会些什么

这些学习 无谓是想保卫自己 出发点是好的

觉得没有错 所以我们总自以为聪明地

把这一套学习套用在每一件事情上面

没有想过 或许我们已经不再需要那套方式

没有想过 或许那套方式根本已经不再适用

现在眼前的 是全新的一件事情

全新的一个人物

和全新的自己

我比较喜欢选择相信

我们都有能力去选择

自己要过的生活

而不是让过去操纵着

Sunday 21 February 2010

...

空白白的 白的天又浑沌变黑
我算是谁 醒了还在原地
白白的 灵魂的诗会很容易碎
落入眼里 想哭却没有眼泪
哦 生怕把一切都砸个粉碎
只有你才能给我一次欣慰
你是无形的伤口
你拼吧你咬一口
再多的爱也不够
都不够 不够
擦完没 伤口

空白白的 白天又浑沌变黑
怕遇到谁 难言的安慰
哦白白的 赤裸的心会很容易碎
落入眼里 想哭却没有眼泪
哦 生怕自己也砸个粉碎
到最尾谁会给我一次欣慰
你是无形的伤口
你拼吧你咬一口
再多的爱也不够
都不够 不够
擦完没 伤口
都不够 却还有
都不够 却还有

空白白的 我的心会一碰就碎
只有你才能给我一次欣慰

你是无形的伤口
你拼吧你咬一口
再多的爱也不够
都不够 不够
擦完没 伤口

你是无形的伤口
你拼吧你咬一口
再多的爱也不够
都不够 不够
擦完没 伤口

白白的-张韶涵

好听

Monday 8 February 2010

Sometimes I need to cry

Today I hidden myself in the toilet and cried for more than half an hour

almost fainted because the smell in the toilet was not nice

seriously for the 1st time, I felt that life's been so tough for me

everything goes against me and I couldn't understand why (why!)

so wanted to give up, so wanted to keep myself away from all these miseries

I had so many "what if"s in my head and they are distracting and annoying!

I am worried I am upset

Thesis is already a major headache for me

ERB is another one! Couldn't she just sign on it? yes she couldn't ><

But, you made me believe you would. ARG I should not have expected that way ><

I doubt, I really doubt about myself

I doubt if I have the strength to go through all these

At the moment this belief of mine

"no matter what life is gonna turn out to be

I would be able to take it"

is being severely challenged

Someone please, come and tell me that I can



Life is gonna to be tough

Yea life is gonna to be tough

still there is one thing I feel really glad about at this moment

which is surprisingly having you in my life

you made me starting to see something that I've been wishing to see

now I know I can make mistakes

so what?! If I got frustrated

you never failed to make me laughing from the bottom of my heart

as you always do

Thank you very much

Sunday 7 February 2010

STRESS

突然觉得很压力

想哭是哇 ><

农历新年快来啊

快来啊

我要回家 T_T